Wrong Bitch

I was reading a bit from the book "Why Men Marry Bitches". Right off the bat, as a guy, there's part of me that doesn't fully agree with the some of the advice. For instance, it was the fact the author polled a certain amount of men doesn't mean the majority around the world. Not all men prefer a good strong woman. Some of guys are classy and old fashioned looking for that type.

Honestly, I'd prefer the 'girl next door' but not a doormat. Guys like me will prefer 'Betty Cooper' over 'Veronica Lodge'... any day of the week. There's something about the girl next door that I've found attractive over the years but feared about the result if things were to ever go sour. Then again I was young and still 'feared' many things involving the opposite sex.

Out of all the things that attracted me (and still does) is the fact I grew up in a community which is very close knit with generations of people that were raised there. It's only common due to my upbringing in the community that I would feel this way.

The girl I'm looking for ultimately is someone that makes you fun to be with, laugh, family-oriented, enjoys the company of others, nice smile, good-natured and won't shy away from trying something new. I will go into 'boyfriend mode' for that type of girl. For those who read my older posts knows that's my best qualities yet to be desired by another.

My vow goes to whomever switches on 'boyfriend mode' is going to wear an engagement ring in less than six months, provided their goal is looking for a good husband. I'm getting old and I would like my graduate present to myself is to become a family man.

Then again a man can dream...

Post #51

I've thinking about what to write about after 50 posts: One of my best kept secrets and/or something that I haven't mention to anyone before, ever...

Once upon a time for as long as I can remember I met a girl on the bus. I remember the first time we met because it was the first time become aquainted with someone on the bus. She went up to me talking about the weather and we started talking on various subjects.

The next time I met her I thought it would best to learn her name. At first, I didn't know why. Honestly it just seemed like a good idea at the time. Since then 'Janelle' and I have been close friends.

For as long as I can remember when we've learned to get know each other. Eventually I was introduced to her mother as if I was her boyfriend, albeit the fact weren't a couple. How I met her was the same way became friends, completely random.

I was on the verge of being part of fairy tale. There was living proof that not everyone is aligned with the stars, part of social network of any kind, age means nothing but a number and what we had was 'magical', in terms of chemistry. Everything was perfect and the one person that should be my girlfriend, almost as meant to be.

But the main problem is the chances are totally random. One thing I've learned from all of is you can not beat random odds of anything. Yet as always I endure, always looking for hope in the name of love...

Fate sent me...

Once upon a dream I was told to step foot into where I used to volunteer over the summer and help them. The only thing I know for as long I can remember Fate sends me wherever and whenever I need to be. Crazy as they may sound, I feel happy enough to know that I have a certain purpose whatever it may be. My life (so far) has been quite interesting. Next on the to-do list... who knows.

Looking back (as always) whenever Fate has sent me to where I need to be there had been a few little rewards now and again. I am at the point in my life of where I accept this as my sole purpose whilst searching for a sense of direction. Among the very few things I learned in life is that Fate has a sense of humor and I'm still looking for the punchline...

That Girl

Fates have yet to be kind when it comes for me to find romance. Looking for possible love wasn't the problem it was getting the mixed signals. Believe me I don't know how anything in my life became complex. Normally it should be male interacts with female, if they like each other it leads to mating and the population of their species continues to flourish.

However we as a species find a way to be complex in nature. If there's one thing I've learned from over the years is having something in common for a relationship is not as much a big deal when it comes to meeting face-to-face. It just means you have something to talk about and you like something with this person.

At a certain point in my life I met a girl that I didn't have anything in common yet we had this chemistry. It was a mix of pheromones, talking, listening and understanding each other that made us 'click'. Basically that's all it takes to make a relationship work. Why it didn't work was because Fate wasn't kind, plain and simple.

If I were to look for someone that had something in common with me I already have doubts finding one. She would have the following qualities: funny, smart and quirky. The girl likes the following: comic books, anime and video games or at least will accept the fact I enjoy these things and won't change these likes for anyone.

Basically, I'm your average fanboy wanting to be family man. The line forms to the right... :P

Back To The Blog

Holy cow! I never realized of how long it's been since my last entry. For the longest time I've been mentally occupied during my days off. Recently, I've haven't found anything worth posting. These days I've surfing the web and discovering a lot of fun stuff.

The highlights in my life for the last ten days: Joining Stumble Upon, getting reacquainted with WoW and finding ways to abstain from Internet porn.

Last few days I have learned:

a) don't need porn to keep the brain stimulated, playing a certain video game is a better remedy...

b) going a great distance for one errand isn't worth it (e.g. a two hour bus ride for an ink jet refill)

c) holding in your pee for six hours is NOT an accomplishment, just stupid

Sometimes I wonder why I wake up in the first place...

Say What?!

The Angry Dream

Before I woke up I had a dream that put my entire life into perspective. In this dream I was angry, very angry about where I am in my life and why I am angry. Truth be told it involved me telling a media scrum following me asking why I am the way I am. And now I feel as if I need to post it online.

For the record, I am socially complex because I just want an intelligent conversation something of which is sorely lacking in my life. If I could I'd love to expand the mind on a daily basis. There's a part of me that just wants to wake up and talk about nearly anything yet being frank about it.

Also it seems that I'm the one and only ultimately who's been holding me back in terms of progress. Yet when I reflect in terms of looking back why I am at certain times in my life I'd like to think that Fate put me there. In other words, I met these people at part of the timeline for this purpose.

The reason of why this happened is for this to happen, so on and so forth. But now I have to move forward. For the longest time I've the 'safety net' for other people, even though they haven't noticed it. However there comes a time of when you need to remove it knowing everything will still be okay.