The Angry Dream

Before I woke up I had a dream that put my entire life into perspective. In this dream I was angry, very angry about where I am in my life and why I am angry. Truth be told it involved me telling a media scrum following me asking why I am the way I am. And now I feel as if I need to post it online.

For the record, I am socially complex because I just want an intelligent conversation something of which is sorely lacking in my life. If I could I'd love to expand the mind on a daily basis. There's a part of me that just wants to wake up and talk about nearly anything yet being frank about it.

Also it seems that I'm the one and only ultimately who's been holding me back in terms of progress. Yet when I reflect in terms of looking back why I am at certain times in my life I'd like to think that Fate put me there. In other words, I met these people at part of the timeline for this purpose.

The reason of why this happened is for this to happen, so on and so forth. But now I have to move forward. For the longest time I've the 'safety net' for other people, even though they haven't noticed it. However there comes a time of when you need to remove it knowing everything will still be okay.