Twitter and Me

For those who follow me on Twitter and to those who I follow back should know a few things about me. Right off the bat, I like to blog, post things online and etc. Only difference is that I do it in moderation. Also from time to time I like to be funny, inspirational and most importantly being myself.

But the word here is 'moderation'. How I see Twitter is different than how others look at a micro blog site. Everyone has their own thing, gimmick or ongoing theme going themselves. Individuality is how we as people define ourselves. At the same time it's our own personal soap box that people can choose to follow their voice or not - it's up to the reader.

My reasons for following certain people on Twitter are simple - I like what you tweet because you're interesting enough to follow. Since my return to Twitter, I've followed and stopped following people for a variety of reasons including the fact they're just promoting themselves in their profession and not something in their daily life.

Out of all the celebrities that are on Twitter I only follow G4 television personality Morgan Webb and actress Felicia Day. Why? To sum it up for Morgan Webb - she doesn't promote herself but other people and as for Felicia Day, I think her bio what reeled me in. Sometimes if a bio is interesting I'll follow just because of that.

In last five months of returning to Twitter a little older a bit more wiser - I've learned that it's not who you follows you but the people that reply to you that matter. A while ago it occurs to me that somehow we're all connected to someone in some small yet insignificant way. Upon conclusion I guess I'll continue being myself and enjoy life.

Mental Nightmare

Once upon a time (not long ago) for a while now times have been a bit lean for me an an employee at the Winnipeg Convention Center. A few months ago I requested that I can only work once a week in order to compensate for time for me to study. Long story, short version is that I'm looking for work to fill in the time.

Idiot me I apply as a dishwasher - forgetting the last time I was one I didn't last long and lord knows I was WAY over my head. The one thing I've learned over the years is that repressing memories isn't a good thing when you need to remember something important like avoiding to apply for a certain job. One thing that I have learned as a dishwasher is the 'where' you should be if you want to be one.

After my first and only shift as a dishwasher I twittered, showered and went to bed. Next thing I know is I'm having nightmarish voices in my dreams telling me to quit and BAM enter the nervous breakdown. Being a God fearing man, I did just that and I'm still jilted about it. Only difference is that I'm going to hopefully sleep soundly.

Growing older means only one thing to me - don't ask how and why certain things happen to me, just accept it happens. Technically speaking, I'm still employed - just not as a dishwasher for a certain restaurant. As far I'm concerned I've hit the 'Roger Murtaugh' point in my life in terms of working in the hospitality industry. Somewhere in your life when you start saying that one infamous catchphrase - the little neurons inside the brain are telling you to find something you like doing.

Odd as this may sound but I like doing what I do as a living - whenever that may be. However I also know that I should pursue something productive to make myself happy. For now I going to learn how to survive this mental breakdown one day at a time and hope for better chances at life.

Current TV Shows I Like And Why

•'Chuck' that somehow sticks out like a sore thumb but what reels me is the fact part of it reflects on my personal life in terms of a possible relationship from my past.

• 'Heroes' reminds me that I'll always be a fanboy and I adore the comic book type storyline.

• 'How I Met Your Mother' - Ever since the pilot I'm still curious of the identity of the mother and how it's building up to just that I'll still watch. Basically, it's a show that going to remind us, it's the little things no matter how minor are very much important in life no matter how long the story is in real life.

• 'Big Bang Theory' Simply put, this is 'Friends' for geeks like me.

• 'Smallville' - Love it because of the interesting take of Superman mythology.

Death For Sale

If anyone were to ask me why I'm NOT a professional writer it would because the last time I wrote I went to a very dark place in my head to write my first short story. To this day I still have the professionally written manuscript which is approximately 20, 000 words (or more). At this time I'd to share an excerpt.

Hello, my name is Gerald Morton and I sell death. For as long as I can remember or as long as I'd prefer wanting to personally recall since I've been a wee lad, I've been very much fascinated with what's involved with death itself. One of the reasons is because of my father, Albert who decided to go into this type of business. Ever since he nearly died while fighting in the Vietnam War, he thought this was a wise investment.

While I was growing up he told me that death isn't a bad thing but a very necessary need in life, albeit how ironic this may sound to to most people. Yet for some odd reason I believed him only because of the way he sold the idea to me. In this world consumers buy things for either a 'want' or 'need'. Selling to the consumer in type of business we also have the obligation to give them this choice.

Is death a 'need' or 'want'? The funny thing is that it can't be considered "both" to most people, just like any other product that's sold to the average consumer. Believe it or not, death is both a common need and a want, which is why it's such an easy product to sell. As a salesman I don't see it in either category but as a preference as if I were selling a car.

The only difference between 'death' and a 'car' is that it's a one-time commitment sale for one person for the rest their own life. A privileged commitment is an honor unto itself. The job that we do without question should be considered just that, a privileged commitment to the consumer. Most of the time death is sold at a reasonable price with a variety of different offers.

Looking at it in a small way, selling death can also be like selling real estate. However the main difference is that a piece of land is being sold with an honest face without any worries from the economy market whatsoever. These prices have been sold as a fixed price for long most people in the business can remember. Also no matter which way most people look at death, it's quite literally an investment of a lifetime.

The Death Post

If there's one thing that everyone knows it's the fact that eventually we all have to age, grow old and then die. However there are few things I'd like to get off my chest only because I think it's important. For the most part when I die, I want to be known that I died without any regrets in life. Everything and anything that happened to me in my life happened for a reason including how I respond to my conflicts of whatever they may have been in the past.

Life is short and thus the only known truth humanity ever care about. Eventually people let go of the little things that may have seemed like a big deal at the time. I pity those who never gave themselves a chance to appreciate of what I did in the name of kindness from the bottom of my own heart and soul yet I forgive them for doing so. The things I've done out of kindness, I did out of love for those who touched my heart and/or soul in a certain way.

I love and cherish each every person that I've met in my own lifetime either online or in person. Each person that I know always will have a special place in my heart and soul. When I pour out my soul onto this blog I have always written from the heart or at least these are my intentions. Truth be told I have a sincere passion of whatever I write in any type of medium.

Although I grew up Catholic, I don't believe in every little minor thing that the church believes in. To sum it up I believe in faith and what it means according to what's defined in the dictionary. I place my faith in God and the fact there's only one God to believe in. Even though I choose not to attend church every Sunday when I'm angry with the good Lord but I know I should be.

Upon conclusion, the past is the past. People should look forward after looking back. My future is what I make of it. The greatest treasure is what you make it to be in life. Amen.

The Quick Blog

At the time I was writing this blog I should have been in church as per my weekly routine. However I've decided to change my pace a bit. For a long time I haven't been spontaneous in while and it seems I should do it more often. Truth of the matter is I'm trying my hardest to stay focused without the aid of stimulants like Ritalin.

For the longest time I've been relying on that drug. Since I've been off it there has been a certain change. One of the reasons why I went off is because I didn't want to know if I was addicted or if it was truly a need. Sometimes you just have to step back and ask yourself who you really are on the inside. Nowadays I'm trying to adjust to life one day at a time including to focus on what's important in life.

This may be one of the toughest struggles in life. But as usual I try to live it one day at a time. Underneath it all we are very much human beings. How I survive is a miracle.

Editing My Life

I just finished deleting certain blog posts so I can prove to myself that I can let go of the past. This wasn't an easy task for me to write about this. Also I'm trying very hard to make sure that I don't repeat myself in any of my previous blog posts. Only thing I know is the only thing I have left to offer from my past is friendship with hope it will last a lifetime.