Go Back One Space

There's one question that I tend to question from time to time. Would I go back to someone who broke my heart? Not really. I'd forgive and hope to still be friends.

My long answer version would be me letting to patch things up and move on. Funny thing about relationships is that most of them don't have a reset switch. People reconcile with each other and move on. Going back and to accept someone back are two different things.

Out of all the things that happens in my life I am always open to let friends be friends again. But friends don't date, they hang out. To win me back would involve a lot of pleasing and understanding what's needed to make a fresh start. As for healing, I am fortunate that time is infinite just like the wounds opened for attempting to starting over.

One Last Temptation

For one mere moment in my lonely life I was 'seduced' back into Facebook. Truth be told I really don't want to go back. By the time you are reading this fellow reader of this blog, I make a sincere attempt to be committed to something that I believe in.

When I'm in a committed in a belief and/or a relationship I stay that way. Out of all the 'friends' on the site, there were only a small handful of true friends. This what I want in life: people in life that are real friends. These people should be people that I hang out, spend good times and enjoy a good adventure.

I'm learning to make new 'friends' via Twitter. Even though the majority are single females I feel that I'm connecting on personal level. Maybe Fate sent me to them. If so, I'm happy and hope to have a happy future provided the Fates allow me to be.

The only thing I know I'm starting life anew with strangers that I hardly know yet it feels good. My social life is like a Phoenix rising from the ashes. Just looking at the website seemed too busy with too much information. Before I sound like a twittervangelist let it be stated for the record whatsoever I write, I say it with heart and passion.

I still love my friends both past and present with all my heart. Somewhere in my heart and soul they all have special place. This is who I am and always will be.

On A Whim?

Among the few thoughts which dangled on mind today was if I would marry someone after just one date. I remember 'Partridge Family' actor, Danny Bonaduce did just that and the marriage lasted quite a long time. Some of the most interesting things can happen in the name of love.

Personally, I give the actor some very much serious props for marrying someone on his first date and having a marriage last for that certain length of time. Honestly and without a doubt I would respect anyone that could sincerely prove to me the relationship will last forever, including if a girl would attempt to try that with me.

The reason why I'd give respect is because it means from love anything can happen. If I find a couple that proves this scenario can work, it will bring back hope for millions of couples. The basic message would be that love can help overcome nearly anything with great odds. Being sceptical person myself I suppose a man can dream the impossible dream and try to make it a reality.

My Career Goal

The idea came to me last night while on the bus. I've decided as a Child And Youth worker, it would give a better understanding of the world around me. After a few years as one I'd like to eventually (and hopefully) create a Boys And Girls Club branch in the Philippines. Filipinos like my mother grew up in an environment where they could have used a place to be with children and be themselves.

Honestly I prefer not to go into details of how badly children world wide could benefit from youth centers such as The Boys And Girls Club. When I was a volunteer I saw kids enjoying themselves with adults and connecting in a way that helps them grow. It felt good to be part of that albeit for a while.

The Boys And Girls Club of Winnipeg helped open my eyes and yearn to be part of that environment. Part of me can never stop saying 'thank-you' enough times. To this day I still love and cherish the friendship that almost like a family, almost like a love affair. Creating a Boys And Girls Club in the Philippines would be my way sharing that kind of love and passing it along to others. Out of the few things I know it's that love is something you give away and yet keep getting more in return.

Crazy Idea

Show me a girl that will marry me for love after being in a relationship for six months...

And I'll show you a dedicated husband crazy enough to make the marriage work - for better or worse.

Maybe it won't work but who knows, stranger things have happened in my life (so far). But seriously IF a girl did ask to marry upon a whim - it would be the spontaneity that would catch my attention. Only reason why- she's the one asking to marry. Pure logic is thrown out the window.

Logic: the process of applying the principles of correct reasoning to reach a decision/evaluate the truth of a claim

I'm a loyal lover to whomsoever I share a relationship with, pure and simple. As a lover I would do anything to make the relationship work, strengthen and grow. Herein lies the paradox. Then again unless she's pregnant - then it's just full throttle, no questions asked.

Out of all the morale beliefs that I prefer to believe in as a God fearing man- no child of mine should be born out of wedlock, period. The writer of this blog is born and raised Catholic. Among the many things I have intentions of doing is attempting to follow a bloodline of something mentor related and/or Catholics. Set aside of me making this blog somewhat humorous, there are some things I believe in and very strongly want to continue these beliefs for the next generation.

Romantic Mode

Out of all the secrets I've revealed (so far) this is one that I'm willing to reveal to whomsoever actually follows this blog. By all means consider this one a special treat. Anyone that reads this should know that I am one of the few legendary romantics who has yet to romance someone worthy.

When the time comes for me to be romantic I choose to make into an art form. Though I dare not make any attempts to do this on this post. My only wish is not for this side of me to be dormant for too long. Let it be stated in the dawn of this century, whomsoever romances me for a week shall truly be deemed worthy of being my equal.

Post #100

On this post I'd thought share some of my best kept secrets. First off the bat, I love to cook but I dare not show my passion for it whenever family members are present. The reason why? It's not that I'm shy around them - I just don't like being criticized and/or given any suggestions by them.

I love my family to a certain extent. But lord knows some of them are the reason I prefer being 'civil', smile and nod. Honestly I'm not really a jerk by nature but once I got a bit more smarter, the more I yearned for a meaningful and articulate conversation with people (and I still am to this day). On a technical note, I like to socialize with people in general yet the problem is finding a topic which most people want to converse about.

At one point in my life, I used to be a comic book reader. But truth be told it's a real expensive hobby after buying a 'x' amount of comic books. Only reason why I follow "Fresh Ink" is because I'd like to know what worth reading when I can afford to be a reader again. For now I'm the guy who reads them at Wal-Mart.

If there's one thing I've always wanted to do before I die it would be nothing of interest to most people. Without a doubt in my mind, I sincerely try to live life to it's fullest. However somewhere on the list is raising my adrenaline with a loved one. Just for kicks I've always wondered what sex is like while falling out of the sky.

There's a lot of things I love to share with you dear blog reader. Until then I thank-you for reading. As always I promise to attempt to keep things interesting via this blog or Twitter. For now may you live long and prosper.

Package Deal

I have this ongoing question about 'what if'. What if the one destined to be at my side reads this blog on a daily basis? There are a lot of things which I don't know and choose not to know. Questions need answers but not always.

Only so many subjects need answers. For a while now I've been asked this one question. It means that someone that has a special place in both my heart and soul knows who I am. This individual knows my strengths, weaknesses and the real me. Honestly, the two things I need and want to know is if she loves me and promise to always will for the rest of her life.

Most things in my life just seem irrelevant since they don't serve a purpose towards any of my own goals. Right now, the only thing I know to do is forgive and start over. Yes, I want to be loved, share love and love those who love me for being me. For those who push away those who love someone out of fear, should learn to overcome fearing the uncertainty.

When I dream about the outcome of something I want to know, there's fear with the knowledge that it nothing comes true. However when I don't dream about the outcome for a certain scenario, I don't know about what comes next. The only thing I know is whatever comes next is supposedly hope. I am in way a soothsayer, knowing what is not set in stone.

For the record, I am truly a God fearing man and hence nearly attend Sunday mass as often as I can. Even though I'm misunderstood by people, I really try not to be around people I care about. The reason why I may seem as quiet, I have a lot on my mind and tend to reflect often. I choose to be civil instead of nice around certain people only because it's easier than to show any sincere feelings.

Yet I still believe there's some good in people. I hope I am still considered one of the good guys to other people. My heart is still full of empathy for the people around me. Anyone who loves the entire package with all of my flaws I will love them back.

The Click Message

For some odd reason I was thinking about the movie "Click", starring Adam Sandler. To sum up the entire plot, it was about man who put his career before anything else. Nothing sincerely mattered until he realized what was truly important, family and those who loved him.

Bluntly put, money doesn't bring happiness it helps provide what you need. Happiness comes from those who care and loves you with all their heart. Love helps create a family but it's money that helps support its needs. All of these facts are true.

According to the plot the importance of life priorities it should be family, love and career. The only known formula for making a traditional family which comes to mind: First comes love, then comes marriage and then comes the baby carriage. Yet somewhere in the mix of things comes a career that's needed to support each other. My advice is to let your career support those you love and vice versa - find balance with both of them and be happy doing it.

Dare To Be Cupid

I am starting to love the show "Cupid" and some of the ideas that dances in my head. One of the ideas that entered my head was jumping head on into a relationship without any worries. Basically the idea is to listen to your heart without a care in the world. Challenge yourself to be bold and daring, all in the name of love.

Take a chance on someone that professes how special they feel. Basically nothing can be gained without venturing into the unknown. Dive in with both feet and go from there. Spontaneity in a relationship helps make it feel alive, embrace chaos.

Everything in the name of love, nothing should be completely linear. If the Fates were to allow me to be in a relationship, I'd define the meaning of 'surprise' on a romantic level and make it sexy. One of these days I yearn to prove that I practice of what I preach in the romance department. In the meantime I will tune in every Tuesday night and remember what love is one episode at a time.

Too Late Story

If there's one romantic comedy plot line that I don't like it's the one where the main character discovers the right one for him/her was just under their nose yet too dense to realize this. Eventually we as the audience get the "Hollywood Ending" thumbed tacked on and then do the happy dance. For those who think it's possible in real life, I believe this scenario can't work in real life.

Most of the time people just want to move on and keep looking. Having a special place in their heart and holding a torch for this person means you want to have your cake and eat it. Good luck. For those who have pulled off this scenario in real life, I tip my hat with the utmost respect.

Once you find someone that makes you feel special in your heart, don't hesitate. Go out and tell this person how you feel about him/her and then make plans for a date. This is how you find someone that makes you happy. It's not rocket science and true romance is only complicated if you make it this way.

So Far

Sometimes there's been one daunting question if I had the chance to change one thing in my life what would it be. If there's one thing I know it would be absolutely nothing. For a while now I've been taking the time to self reflect, look forward as well reflect upon the present.

Not many people can stop and see the whole picture like I do or for that matter privileged to be blessed in this manner. The more I think in this manner the only thing I accept the outcome of things to come and what has transpired. My life is my own and always will be. How I change will be and always has been such a spiritual journey.

That Motive

Today I thought I'd give some free relationship advice with hopes it doesn't fall on false ears: If the person in your relationship keeps saying "You'll do it if you love me." as a means to stop being friends with a certain someone - he/she is trying to control you. This isn't love and you should get out of the relationship. Anyone who feels the need to be dominat in a relationship most likely doesn't consider you as an equal and a selfish lover.

People who are a selfish lover actually love themselves and treat their partner more or less as a trophy than a human being. Sadly most people are blinded by love not to notice this fact and/or ignore it completely. Manipulating and controlling a person with love is wrong. The people who do notice this such as friends and family should know it's next to impossible to intervene with this person because the partner used fear tactics and labels.

Real lovers don't control their partner for whatever reason, period. Lovers embrace friendship with kindness, respect and warmth. Good relationships of any sort are built on faith and trust with people that you care about. Lasting relationships are based on respect, trust and being kind to those around you.

Proof Of My Finte Knowledge

I am going to naturally make the assumption that people need proof that I have finite information about relationship advice. Fine. Here's the truth about 80% of my advice comes from my own personal experience and learning from it. The other 20% comes from burying my nose in tons of relationship books.

Dear reader the truth is I'm still always learning about several things. But after wondering where I went wrong and how I could have made it work. The first thing that I did was read enough information and kept on going. Readers I'll prove it when 'hunting season' begins. Only thing stopping me from dating anytime soon is me getting out of debt, lack of casual work shifts will do that.

Yet I assure who ever is reading this I'm learning to listen to my heart. The worst that could happen is nothing. My heart has been scorned enough times to learn to go on and heals faster after every rejection and/or break-up. After a while I make myself a bit more stronger.