Pressure Overload Nearly Kills Sanity

If I could have one wish this week it would be getting the answers that I need.  This week has me walking on a lot of eggshells.  On Monday, I am informed that at the start of every class there will be a test. At first,  just thinking about the pressure to pass 'Psychology' was poured on really thick long before I even started the class.  Honesty and without any sincere doubts I knew the pressure was on but I didn't want to show it.

The good news is that I have a week to mentally prepare, to prove myself and release the tension. Not many people know this but all of this overwhelming stress crashed onto me like a tidal wave and crushing everything in site.  All of my sanity quickly is going south faster than it should.  For goodness sake I see the path to a better life within my reach but it just seems so far away.

Yesterday I thought of trying to release it by having some fun on the workplace.  Sadly, it was a bad idea and upset the co-worker.  The truth is that I didn't want anyone to know that I'm masking the ongoing built up tension from last night.  No one can know that somewhere in the workplace is a powder keg ready to explode.  Letting people know this fact isn't healthy. 

As for today, my parents think that I'm not taking this subject on seriously enough.  However I've decided the logical approach is to get all of tension out of my system then bury my nose into the textbook.  Getting all this pressure to pass this one course feels like a lot of weight on my shoulders.  The problem that they created for me doesn't help me on a mental level but the exact opposite.

For nine years I've been working in a stress filled environment that drives people nuts.  I'm one the few carefree people that has still works there.  As for why I still work there... who knows. Only thing I know is whenever I hit my boiling point I eventually just want to let loose. How I release tension, that's another story for another day.  

The only thing I know is that putting all of my rants online helps me get some perspective on life.  Right now, I thank those who read and understand my woes.