(Don't Read This)

This is the only few times I'm going to mention anyone's full name in a blog post.  For the record I've personally extinguished nearly all of the torches I held for girls that I could have dated in my past except one, Catherine Altham.  She was the first on my list and only one I ran away from. Until I know there's someone that loves me for me with all of my faults and who I am, I will still have feelings for her.

Yes, I'm ready to let go of the love and the life I could have shared with her.  But to forget what she still means to me is another thing.  Whenever I eat a 'Sweet Marie' chocolate bar nowadays it just simply translates for me as I'm still looking for that one to live "happily ever after".  The last time I ate one I still thought about her one last time of the romance I could have shared.

Honestly, I'd be willing to admit she raised the bar quite high in terms of everything I could ever hoped for.  Although this information would break the heart of someone that loves me but truth be told I have yet to experience 'the whole package' of a loving relationship.  I want to know what it's like to wake up to real love every day for the rest of my life with someone that's willing to commit to that type of relationship.  

One kiss to rule over all of my days with one heart from one person that loves with true love is all that I ask from The Fates.  Catherine Altham is not the villain of  this story but the hero. She reminds what love is, could be and that I can find it with someone special.  I hope her nothing but the best.  No lover of mine should be jealous of you in any shape or form, instead thankful that I know what love can be if I share it with another.